Disgusted
Of all the times my parents have been disappointed with me, now I'm disappointed with them. My dad and mom are both down by the pool amazingly DRUNK. See, my parents aren't Christians, which is hard sometimes, but my parents AREN'T partiers. I want to cry, because it use to be me and Dad making fun of the drunk people, but now it's him, he's the drunk guy. When I mean drunk, I don't mean falling down, puking everywhere, drunk...They're just, mouthy, and not my parents. It's a bigger deal to me about my dad than my mom (cause my mom has always been a bit of a partier) because my dad IS my best friend. I'm just really sad right now, and I feel like crying. Everything's just bad right now.To fill you all in I've already given up reading the bible in a year, but instead I'm trying something new like BPW. Every day it alternates, one night I read the bible, the next pray, the next worship. Seeing as how it's 12:30 already, I probably wont get to doing it, and it will be just another FAILED attempt at creating a devotion life. I'm to the point where I don't think I'll ever amount to anything in Christ, and working for him because I can't spend any more than three days in a devotion. I HATE MY LIFE.
wow....thank goodness for fridays!!! this week at work has been soooooooo trying!!! honestly!! thanks be to God that i made it through!! the kids were so bad!! they would not listen and were always whining and complaining it seemed...not to mention everyone on staff including myself were feeling lazy....but since i am the so termed "new-b" i was usually the one stuck alone with all the kids while the others "organized things" .....GAH!!! it was so difficult attempting to keep them all under control!! but alas, i have made it out!!
though i am glad this week is over it is also a little sad.....i mean, i have what? like 4 weeks left of summer before i will be forced to take a major step towards growing up and head off to university leaving behind family and friends.....and the work load will be insane too....dang summers...they always go way too fast.....
o well, next week is the fair!! well, old home week....and i dont know why i have such an obsession with the fair...but i just LOVE it!! it has to be one of the highlights of my summer....well of the year for that matter!! theres something oddly romantic about fairs at night....lol, wow...dunno where this is heading...but hahahaha! just a random thought for u krystle...i mean, picture sitting close with some "significant other" on the ferris wheel overlooking all the lit-up rides and stars and ya....the fair on a warm summer night just seems so perfect...like something from a storybook eh? hahaha...wow....i think ive had one too many disney movies...(just finished watching ice princess...lol...not too bad i guess...average....)
well, those are my thoughts as of 11:48 friday night......hope u all enjoyed them!! :)!! night all
~luv becky~
Hot, soooo Hot
Today was so hot I didn't even do anything. I swam. I took some really sweet pictures of the kids that were swimming at my pool today. I'll post them, if I can figure out how to do that...ha!This is Jack...he is very much like Jack-Jack off of The Incredibles (awesome movie) . Devilish lil guy. He hates water and so my mom grabbed him and put him in (don't worry she didn't drown him). He ended up taking all of his clothes off because he hated it so much. So here was a lil 2 year old kid running around naked at my house. Fun! He's so darn cute..I have six million pictures of him.I have begun reading the bible in a year. Ambious, cause I'll probably quit in a month or two. I need preserverence. Oh LORD I need preserverence. Anyways, I'm out to read day 2 of the bible in 1 year. Witness Always
Praise Often
Rock Hard
Krystle Lynn
Today, Just Another Day
Today, I cleaned. It's quite amazing really, cause I never clean but I figured since Nancy (the housekeeper) was on vacation for the past 4 days she'd probably quit if she came back and saw the shape our house was in. You're welcome Nancy. I went to Hartland Wesleyan Church Youth Group tonight and it was amazing! Congrats Kevin! God really worked through you tonight. His "discussion" was on being different, and being light, kinda like what I was trying to talk to my friends about this weekend. Unfourtnaetly (sp) only three of them were there. Tim Hortons was fun to, there was a ton of us there. I'm really excited to see what God's doing in Hartland. One thing about the church I am attending right now, is that the numbers don't seem to fluxuate (sp) so much. At my old church I can totally see where some people are going to be offended and hurt by the church and quit going. My new church on the other hand, I bet there's people that have been going there their entire lives. I think that's a really awesome thing, but I also see where they might be loosing out on creating an army of young people for Jesus Christ. No church is without their down points, I'm defenetly not saying that there's a perfect one, but I believe that I have not found my "home church" as of yet. Maybe God has a different idea, they say if you want to make God laugh tell Him your plans, but I just don't feel at "home" yet. Who knows what Moncton will bring, but it sure would suck to have to travel to Moncton every weekend to church...lol..just kidding..I wouldn't do that. I'm actually massively excited to start church in Moncton. The one that I think I am going to attend is called Harvest House. The building began as a stip club but they turned it into a church. I've heard (that means that this might not be true) that there are quite a few people that go there with massive addictions and so they have a 15 minute break between worship and the message so that people can "do whatever they need to do" . I was asked if I wanted to be around people like that. I agree that I couldn't be buddy, buddy with them, but I'd like to try to help. They also have a kick butt drama ministry. I totally want to get involved with that! I haven't really been able to use that party of my talents for the furthering of Christ's kingdom yet. I'm really interested in trying it though. Anyways, it's late, I've got TONS of work to do tomorrow!Witness AlwaysPraise OftenRock HardKrystle Lynn
My Wedding
So I take the whole wedding thing pretty seriously. I think that today people take it WAY too lightly, which might explain the whole 50% divorce rate. Tonight I ended up picking up my mom at a wedding dance, and decided quite frankly I don't care who says what, I'm not having one. I figured out a long time ago that I'm going to have a 10 AM wedding and right directly after (So there's no waiting for the Bride and Groom) we're going to have a breakfast buffet. Just think about the pros in that! Breakfast is THE cheapest meal to make, I'll have all day to leave for my Hunnymoon (ahh I can't spell and Josh is no help) all day to have pictures taken and my family is less likely to get drunk (less because you never know with my family!) The only con I can see, and it's a huge possibility, is me dropping food on my dress egads!
Other wedding details (as of right now is) I want my brother to stand up with me, as well as Danielle Boucher and Amy Branswell. I want my wedding to be very musical and I want to write my own vows. I think I would love to have it at the Fredericton Anglican Cathedral but with a very NON-Anglican service. My friend Kristina just got married last weekend and it was an amazing wedding! I hope her life with Andrew is as amazing as her wedding.
I think it's only natural for girls to dream about their weddings. I praise God for that. I really think that girls need to chase those dreams and not settle for less than what their dreams are. I've decided to do so by creating a box for my future husband. It's really cute, but the only way you'll see what's on the inside is if you're my future husband (or Danielle cause we share these things, and she is the perfect boyfriend). I've also created a list of the top ten qualities that I wont settle for. I've also passed out that list to people that I admire and I know will ask me the tough questions on my boyfriend. God gave me these dreams, and like last night's post God wants to give me the desires of my heart. I'm not sure if I'm going to post my top ten qualities yet, maybe in a later post.
I just want to encourage everyone who reads this to follow your dreams and chase them with a passion that is only lesser than your passion for your King.
Tonight I tried to talk to my friends about swearing. I think I was shut down. They gave me crap about how they only do it in front of each other and that certain words aren't swear words. I tried to explain that as Christians we're suppose to be better than that...It didn't work so well I was told that was the problem with us (meaning Christians) is that we like to think we're better than everyone. I wish now that I would have used the word different. When light (aka Jesus) comes into darkness (aka Sin) darkness doesn't stay dark...it's changed. Pray that they might be convicted if it's God's will.Witness AlwaysPraise OftenRock HardKrystle Lynn
The Grad Party Review
Well tonight was my grad party, and to say the least I am really disappointed. There were like 5 of my guy friends from Hartland (thanks Josh, Joel, Chris, Shawn, and James) and later my sweet awesome, totally hip (don't ya think Josh?) friend Danielle came. I'm so glad, sometimes being
one of the guys just isn't that great. I'm having a really hard time with the perverseness. I understand that they are guys, and that if I wasn't there they'd talk about it, but I find myself laughing at that stuff. I feel really convicted of it and I really am trying really hard not to. I guess I'm just not being treated the way I want to. Yes I have puked in front of them (if you want the entire low down on that go read Josh's blog) and today was a milstone --> I slipped a fart! But I still want to be treated as a lady, but "love never gives up" and I love these guys like brothers so I'm not going to give up (well unless they become bad influences and God tells me to give up).
So tonight the devotion is about Disapointment and because my personal promise bible doesn't have disappointment in it it's Discouragment. The devil's totally trying to discourage me but I'm going to keep pressing on in the name of Jesus. I guses if you're an avid reader here on "MY PALACE" you'd notice how I talk about my discouragment...well...
A LOT but that's only because that's the thing that I think I need God to help me with the most right now.
Psalm 37:4 Says:
Delight yourself also in ME, your LORD, and I will give you the desires of your heartSo to that I say:
Lord, You know my heart! I want to be a girl totally devoted to you! You know my longings because it says so in Psalm 37:4! Help me put my faith in you, and not in people!
Anyway, I'm out, I have a quick e-mail I need to write!
Witness Always
Praise Often
Rock Hard
Krystle Lynn
Quick Post
Thanks Josh, You've gotten me addicted to these things! This one's gonna be quick because I've watched the Late Show two nights in a row! I read tonight 1 John 4:8 (He who does not love, does not know God; for You God, are love.) I really love that verse, because it challenges me to love everyone --> Even the people that just assume that they can travel with me and ask Joel for a ride in MY van! At the bottom of the devotional there was a quote by C.K Chesterton. I've never heard of the guy, but this quote was totally cool, and the more I read it, the more it inspires me!Let your religion be less of a theory and more of a love affairWords to live by right there. I have a box for my future husband full of letters, cards, books things like that. I already love him, but that's because in a weird way, I spend time with him. When I'm on my face repenting to God I tell Him how much I love Him, and each time He tells me that I can say it but i need to show it. So to everyone who reads this....probably because it's just Josh right now (ha!) I really want to encourage you to prove it. Put your actions where your mouth is. Witness AlwaysPraise OftenRock HardKrystle Lynn
Today's Devotional!
Today I was reading My Personal Promise Bible (which I suggest that everyone get) and I read James 4:6-7 ("I give more grace. Which is why I say, 'I resist the proud but give grace to the humble.' Submit yourselves therefore to Me, your God. resist the devil, and he will flee from you.")
It really spoke to me! It was totally cool how God encouraged me though that verse. Last night I was going to sin super bad, and I really felt the devil telling me to do it...but I prayed such a simple prayer and the temptation went away. It was awesome again how today Pastor AJ from the Trinity Wesleyan talked about how we never praise God for the bad days. Obviously, we're not going to ask for bad days, but they're the ones that build our character. Funny, we talked about that in Sunday School on Sunday.
My sweet friend (boyfriend haha insider joke) Danielle says that God brings you up on top of the mountain to show what He can do, but then He sends you right back down into the valley because that's where everything grows. It's true in real life though, rarely does anything grow on top of a mountain, but the view is spectacular. Tons of plants grow in the valleys, and yes it might be a hard place to be, but that's where you're going to grow.
Ahhh, God's amazing!
On another note, I'm a bit worried about my band....We have yet to practice this summer. And the thing is, we have potential...if we would just put our minds to it, and give our gifts to God...2nd Generation could be amazing! Oh well, I'm going to leave that in God's hand. Chances are I wont be the next Third Day (oh but to meet them would be AMAZING) so I'll work on my other talents as well (just incase Third Day ever needs a new drummer).
Anyways, I should probably try to get some sleep tonight!
Love you all,
Witness Always
Praise Often
Rock Hard
Krystle Lynn
My First Post!
Well,
My first post will probably be a rant. I'm dissapointed! In people, in my life, in everything! See I use to be this right, rockin', crazy on fire Christian, but I've slowly brought myself down to a baby Christian again. I've been a Christian for three years maybe...my family isn't Christian so it's hard! I'm not complaining! Serious, what more of an honour than to lead your family to Christ, but it's just....Rough. My parents expect me to be sensible, and realistic, but that's not what faith is about...It's about believing in things you can't see, believing in the impossible --and what's really sensible about that?
I read a post on Jody Mac's Blog...it was totally inspiring! He was totally on fire when he wrote that...I don't even know the guy and I appreciate him already!
I guess I'm just tired of trying to lift everyone else up Spiritually...I try to encourage and encourage but I guess sometimes I just need to be encouraged. Life is draining my spirit out of me. Guys, if anyone ever reads this...Please pray for me. I'm going to read my bible, and find my ecouragement there!
Love you all,
Witness Always
Praise Often
Rock Hard
Krystle
